Okay so here’s the deal, I’m trying to talk about my fibromyalgia and chronic pain a little more in an attempt to 1) get it out of my system and 2) make sense of it. I know a lot of people question fibro (as I call it for short) because you can’t see it. I struggle with that A LOT myself. I believe there is something else going on but we just haven’t found it yet. But there is no question that the pain is real. So if someone tells you they have it, don’t question it just try to understand they have something going on that makes them feel like pure A$$ sometimes! That being said, part of my jewelry journey is about the dream of working for myself and being able to make my own schedule and fill my day the best way I can for me and my health. Don’t get it twisted I know people who work for themselves work really hard, probably harder than most. But to be able to not have to be up at the sound of an alarm seems dreamy. Literally.
Because of how I feel most days, I like to be comfortable so clothes and shoes are not my first thought when planning my day. I have never been a fashionista. Being a beach girl for me means my favorite form of foot wear is flip flops. I also don’t have great feet so pretty shoes hurt. On top of that is my back. I have had a “bad back” since I was 16. High heels don’t agree with me either. Standing in general hurts my back so add heels and I need to sit or lay down for a very long time! I also have to be warm because cold hurts my body, too, so I can often be seen in a comfy fleece that is likely not flattering but doing its job.
I have been told fibromyalgia can develop after some kind of trauma like a car accident. When we lived in California my back bothered me but I can remember the number of times I had to lay on the floor because it was really sore. Twice. In six years. Three weeks before we moved home I was in a car accident and when we got home my back started “going out” on what felt like a regular basis. I’d be confined to the floor for two to three days in an attempt to get it to calm down so I could function again. A few different doctors, chiropractors, PT, cortisone shots, etc., etc., a back surgery and a minor knee injury and here we are. I am in a constant state of protection. I have a hard time relaxing because that may mean something will happen that causes me pain. It’s really no surprise that my muscles ache. My current chiropractor (who I’ve know since elementary school!!) and massage therapist (total bad ass) are my current go-to’s for all of the pain that I deal with.
This takes me to my point of jewelry being my fashion statement. I can wear whatever jewelry I want and it doesn’t restrict me or make me uncomfortable. My clothes can’t be tight and have to be soft. I do believe cotton is the fabric of our lives.
I can layer necklaces, bracelets, wear toe rings, multiple earrings up my ears and feel fine. I wear more rings on one hand than most people wear in total and all I have to do is take them off when I wash my hands. Easy peasy. While I have always been into jewelry, it makes sense now more than ever what it means for me to wear it. It has become my form of a fashion statement. There is no doubt that I choose my jewelry most days before I choose my clothes. I get more excited to pack jewelry for a trip than I do clothes. On special days like holidays I choose pieces that have meaning while most people are probably choosing a new outfit, something flattering or dressy first before choosing accessories. Holidays also mean eating soooooo make sure those pants or that skirt have a little give in the waist!
I recently did a yoga video that I taped on Maryland Public Television. The woman said yoga is a practice of patience. Oh uhhhhh NO WONDER I have such a hard time getting (back) into it. I’d much rather walk on my treadmill and watch the latest Housewives because there is literally no thinking involved. Practicing yoga or stretching, for me, means slowing down and having to think about what I’m doing and feel all the tension in my body. Who wants to do that?! I do realize that I need to do this consistently in order to begin to ease the tension and that will take time. I stopped going to yoga about two years ago, maybe three. My BFF, Sam, is also the teacher of the classes I’d attend. She could easily say, “I told you so,” when I look back and think that just one class a week helped me. But she would never and she continues to talk me through a lot of what I feel.
I will try to get back to Sam’s Wednesday night class at Involution and in the meantime I will try to meditate and stretch or do my yoga video most days. It’s sometimes hard when Patches wants to join but it also makes it so much better. Don’t forget to check out my pieces that can easily be layered or make a statement on their own!
After reading this, my aunt sent me a link to a story on the famous artist Frida Khalo and how she, too, adorned herself with jewelry after a debilitating spine injury. Clearly, I’m in good company with my fashions sense.